14 October 2011
The Discrepancy Between
15 September 2011
peace is only found when not even a breath can nestle between us
04 August 2011
Guinea Pigs and Lab Rats
06 July 2011
Reconstituted Nightmares
We were all deceived.
Arching his hand in the air, directing the flow of once-alive traffic like a demonic Poseidon controlling the seas, we come to understand. He had known all along. The old man's withered, parched lips had hovered precariously close to his ear, breathing words tainted with the foul staleness of age, bribing him to impossible power. The combination of odor and proposition was both irritating and enticing enough that he relinquished and accepted.
I had been the first to notice something was awry.
Entering a darkened room, black liquid decorated the floor in splatters. Eyes followed the trail, further and just a bit further, until a massive heap of bloody cloth was discovered. I squinted in the flickering light, trying to understand if what I saw was real. I screamed incoherently. I pointed frantically. They rushed to my side to understand the commotion when they saw it, too. Something very bad had happened here.
It was then that we heard it.
Scratches at the door.
"What was that?"
"It sounds like .."
"But .. but how?"
"Doesn't it kind of sound like .. ?"
Thuds against the flimsy, plywood barricade, like a basketball without an owner.
"It definitely sounds like .."
Why had we come here in the first place? Staring at the vibrating door, I recollected how this had all began. He had told us to come. He had led us here, all of us so naively laughing and telling stories as he brought us to our end. As the realization slowly crept into my skull, I turned towards him. He was smiling. Out of the four of us, he was the only one finding satisfaction in the impending attack. He had known all along.
His eyes caught the angle of my face and flickered ever-so-slightly. Not enough to turn and look at me.
Coward.
Just then, a scream.
I turned to my right to see decomposing, dismembered limbs dragging her away from us. Her long, black hair fell helplessly as her frenzied extremities attempted to grip onto something, anything to save her. She extended her hands to us, but she was already gone. We could no longer save her. Only three of us were left.
A too-convenient ax rested at my feet. Cautiously, I gathered it and braced myself to hack away at all that even approached me. He turned and faced us, taking steps backwards into the mass of rotted flesh, the remnants of those who once were. They quieted down and waited for his command.
An arch of his hand in the air and a wave began to descend upon my only remaining companion. He thrashed and squirmed and screamed. I tried to make contact between my blade and their skulls, but their teeth quickly sunk into his skin, the sounds of squirting blood and digested muscle drowning out his screams until there were no more.
I gripped my ax tighter, knuckles white, and turned to face him again. I tried to remember who he had been, but my instinct for survival was too strong. With the only battle cry I could muster, I swung my ax overhead and charged, driving the blade down with as much strength as my body would allow.
And then ..
20 June 2011
some mouths are better left shut
one loses the right to lament
the daily ongoings of life
and the bigger happenings of existence
if that same one makes no attempt
at grasping the reins or wheel
or steering-device of his or her
metaphorical vehicle
in order to find that which will truly
bring
happiness.
07 June 2011
Birthday Nostalgia is Never Very Constructive
physical endurance is a matter of genes,
of sweat, of blood,
of you-can-do-its and just-a-little-mores.
but the pores of my skin
were open just a little too wide
and went a little too deep,
and the collection of saline that
leaped from your face
was enough to turn my cells
to blood and calcium to bone.
where are you now
in this gargantuan speck we
incredulously call home?
do you inhale through small nostrils
the aroma of earth and humanity
the way i have been known to do?
do you gaze at distant fires
and wonder at the ancestors of us all?
i will slip my toes into that brackish deep
and let the tumultuous wind carry these thoughts to you,
oh, giver of life and enigma of memory:
whether i am to ever know the outlines of your face (i imagine it like mine),
or am meant to forever be satisfied to go without,
love has never known a restriction,
from the moment of your sacrifice
to the very breath i now take,
and will never know one in my life
all because of you,
the mother who
had no choice
but to give me
away.
17 May 2011
the weight of blood and muscle.
there's simply too much.
25 April 2011
euler's number falters in comparison
when eyes close
and ghosted fingers
trace over goose-bumped skin,
when unconscious
states coax heavy lids
and whispers swirl,
when forms collide
and diaphragms strike in
rhythm with each other,
when fingers divide and conquer
delicate strands of hair,
brushed back from peering globes,
there is no other,
both in truth and in idea,
whose fingers touch,
and whose voice beguiles,
and whose skin delights,
quite like yours,
oh, half to my half
and piece to my piece.
it has always been you.
it will always
be you.