22 June 2010

In This Case, Wandering Equates Lost













the concept of "what if" is
often(too commonly)explored.
it creates for the wonderer
a world of possibility,
most of which
cannot be obtained
and will
never
be obtained,
thus resulting in the complete
lo(disappearing act)ss of said
wonderer to these
hypothetical
imaginary
fantastical
make-believe
situations.

yet i find myself to be a wonderer
from time to time,
despite all attempts at grip(vice)ping
my focus like the hand of a small child.

the thought of never having him
knowing him
(most of all)loving him
is one i cannot comprehend,
yet some 22(and 7/8ths)odd years were lived
and experienced
and known
and had
without him(though, perhaps,
there had always been a hole,
meant only for him).

his house would be another dwell(home)ing
i would have never explored or known.
his smile(like the first warmth of summer)would have
shone for someone else.
his eyes(how i can drown in them)would gaze
softly
eversosoftly
at another, perhaps more deserving.
his hands(strong and perfectly constructed)would have
reached for her's, whoever she is,
while their toes were lost amongst the grains of sand
at the mouth of the atlantic.
and his lips(perfect and divine)would have
intertwined and mingled with lips not my own.

but i cannot lose myself in this
ridiculous(utterly)world of
situations that melan my choly.

the ultimate fact of the matter is that he is
here,
he is
known,
he is
loved(my god,
he is loved);

he is
Mine.

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